I haven't blogged in ONE WHOLE MONTH. My goodness. It's been too long. I've had fun jumping around other people's blogs though. It's good when I physically don't have time to catch up with everyone, but I'm able to get a brief "newsletter" of what's going on in their lives. SO thank God for blogs, they make me feel like a slightly better friend.
Anyways... SO MUCH STUFF has been going on.
Ever since I took up the leadership mantle from Joy this year, it's been an absolute roller coaster for me. Studentlife. Never thought that I'd get to the point where a third of my daily thoughts would revolve around this group. Honestly, leading bible study after bible study has made me a little drained and tired. Now I appreciate it so much when someone else actually leading the discussion and I'm not the one that constantly has to feed into people.
GOD, WE NEED MORE LEADERS.
I never knew there was so much to think about under the surface of leading such a group. Keeping stats, organising the weekly meeting times, encouraging people to go to camp, getting affiliated with the Uni, funding... etc etc. On top of this... remembering to love people instead of focusing on the shallow aim of simply "expanding" the club.
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The other day I was wondering why I seem to be losing my passion for God. Why is it that once I get home, I immediately open my facebook page and not a page of the Bible? Why is it that I fail to set time aside daily to really speak to God and to hear from Him?
Maybe it's cause I doubt that He really hears my prayers.
Maybe it's cause I don't really understand His love for me.
Cause if I did believe with all my heart that MY prayers were heard by the Almighty God and that He really loved me with an everlasting love... I'd be so much more eager to draw close to Him. I definitely know these things to be true.. but I think I just forget.
It's scary how signs of burning out can be so subtle sometimes.
Anyways... SO MUCH STUFF has been going on.
Ever since I took up the leadership mantle from Joy this year, it's been an absolute roller coaster for me. Studentlife. Never thought that I'd get to the point where a third of my daily thoughts would revolve around this group. Honestly, leading bible study after bible study has made me a little drained and tired. Now I appreciate it so much when someone else actually leading the discussion and I'm not the one that constantly has to feed into people.
GOD, WE NEED MORE LEADERS.
I never knew there was so much to think about under the surface of leading such a group. Keeping stats, organising the weekly meeting times, encouraging people to go to camp, getting affiliated with the Uni, funding... etc etc. On top of this... remembering to love people instead of focusing on the shallow aim of simply "expanding" the club.
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The other day I was wondering why I seem to be losing my passion for God. Why is it that once I get home, I immediately open my facebook page and not a page of the Bible? Why is it that I fail to set time aside daily to really speak to God and to hear from Him?
Maybe it's cause I doubt that He really hears my prayers.
Maybe it's cause I don't really understand His love for me.
Cause if I did believe with all my heart that MY prayers were heard by the Almighty God and that He really loved me with an everlasting love... I'd be so much more eager to draw close to Him. I definitely know these things to be true.. but I think I just forget.
It's scary how signs of burning out can be so subtle sometimes.
