I'm sitting in Tab's little room right this very moment. Her room's not very different from the rooms at La Trobe colleges. They're pretty small. I think if I had to stay in college, I'd feel a deep need to go say hi to randoms and hopefully make some good friends. Isolation can be a scary thing.

Went to climb Bukit Timah hill today with Jolene, Isaac and Yin. We reached the summit of 163m above sea level (: An absolute achievement. Actually it's not really high at all. But it was a treacherous path filled with endless obstacles and challenges. There were the ridiculously steep steps, the roots sticking out of the ground and designed to trip unknowing trekkers, beautiful spiderwebs, crazy monkeys, algae covered rocks and countless ferns. It was all very beautiful in it's wondrous nature. All of us worked up a sweat by the end of the trekking.

After that, we ate lunch at some random ramen place. FISH BEE HOON. YUM.
Then we went for foot reflexology. It was excruciating sometimes, but it was an experience to remember. It's not very often that your feeble feet get man handled and manipulated by a random stranger. Yin said that her feet felt like they were reborn at the end of it. I wish my feet felt the same way.

Ok.. so maybe it's that time of the month again. But I find myself thinking a bit too much. Slap me, throw me in a pond, pinch my cheeks.. whatever. I just want to wake up from this state and skip around without my inhibitions. Whoever's reading this, please be praying for me.


I want to be who You've called me to be,
I want to be dancing freely in the promise
of how much You love me.

Please give me wisdom, Lord,
& courage to obey You whenever you call.

I wish everything was simply what they appeared to be.

Emotions, feelings, thoughts would be so much easier to read.

There would be no secrets, no lies, no performances or pretense.

There wouldn't be a chance for pride to cover the face of fear,

there wouldn't be uncertainty held within words spoken.

Why does everything have to be so complex.

Jesus, Your peace is all that I need.

Lord, Your love is more than enough for me.

So the new year has finally begun. There are many things to thank God for in the course of 2009 and many things to hold close to my heart. If I were to list all of them, I think it'd take forever.. and I'm pretty sure there will be too many to count if I count the small, but extraordinary events that have taken place throughout the year.

During the watch night service at church on New Years Eve, I said that the theme of 2009 for me was EVANGELISM. But I think to be more accurate, after reflecting on it for a bit more, the theme of my year was the challenge to die to myself and live for Christ.

Until now I'm still desperately struggling.

I can just feel God holding my hand and guiding me, allowing me to take little steps closer to the edge of totally depending on Him. I just pray that I'll never allow my fears to overtake me and cause me to shy away from doing His will.

2 key resolutions for 2010:

To always be expecting God to speak to me whenever and wherever. May my heart be still enough and totally surrendered to God when He calls, so that His glory and His power may be witnessed so evidently and undoubtedly in my weaknesses and inadequacy.

Also..

to PRAY more.. not just with my lips, but with my heart and soul.

You, O Lord, are a faithful God.