Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity

Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the ones forgotten

Give me your eyes so I can see

- Give Me Your Eyes, Brandon Heath

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Went to Melb Uni today with the intended purpose of studying, but it didn't really work out.
Ended up studying for only 2 - 3 hours. Ven, Andrea and I tried to study together, but in the end we all ended up getting distracted by stupid Facebook. It shouldn't have been created. It was quite a fun "study session". Got quite violent at one point when they tried stuffing a minty into my mouth. Psychomaniacs.

I've been listening to Jon Courson's online preaching of the book of Revelation (: It's really such an interesting book in the Bible. Heaps of people, including myself, often give up trying to understanding the book of Revelation, but it's actually really really interesting and amazing once it's understood. Jon Courson has helped me understand the symbolism and context of the events in Revelation so much more. "It's a revelation of Revelation", as Alvin Kong would say. It's beautiful how the future is slowly unfolding according to His love story.

The last prayer meeting before Fungus last Friday, Haney mentioned that there was a mass spiritual dryness going on with most Christians at the moment. She was right. I think heaps of people have lost that little bit of vigour and passion because of stress and tiredness. It's just that time of year, with the oncoming exams and additional stresses. I truly think that this is the time when we, Christians, should be remaining prayerful and diligent in reading His Word. We should not lose our shine or our lustre because of these pressures, but to be different! To bring joy into a room, when everyone else is down and out. To smile when a friend is frowning. To give a warm hug to someone who's running out of strength. To say a kind word to someone who needs a ray of sunshine in the midst of gloomy clouds (: It's time to shake the salt.

I feel like I'm trapped in a really twisted mindset.
My priorities seem to be insignificant and wrong.

Weird, sudden realisation today.
I realised that the main reason why I'm afraid of being judged by others is because I'm guilty of it myself. It takes an arse to know one.

What if you could hear the truth
Instead of old familiar lies
And what if you could feel inside
The power of the hand that made the universe

- What Would Life Be Like, Big Daddy Weave

My lecture is about to start in 15 minutes.. I thought I'd just make a quick post.

Well.. so far, life has been zooming by at the speed of light. The end of May is already approaching and exams will be here in the blink of an eye.

Just realised that I may not be able to go to the Fungus/101 camp OR the MYC Studentlife camp because my intensive sign language course at Uni clashes with BOTH camps. Kill me now ): It's quite depressing. But I guess it won't be THAT bad, cause I'll be learning something I've always wanted to learn. I just can't imagine what it'll feel like looking at all the photos taken at camp and imagining how much fun I missed. I really wanted to see that amazing night sky again. Looks like it won't be happening this holiday, unless I drive myself to woop woop. Anyone else interested? LOL.

Time for lectures.. WOO HOO (:

More like nap time.

I'm sorry for the times I've missed that slight drop in your shoulders, that slight tiredness in your eyes, that little sigh that you heave. I'm sorry for the times I've failed to listen to your answer after asking "how has your week been?" I'm sorry for the times I've failed to be there when you needed someone to rant and to talk to.

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Anyways.. this week has been a total drainer. Maybe because it's just that time of the month, with the additional gloomy weather. It's only Wednesday and I feel so tired already. I think it's just cause there's a test worth 5% of my Human Biology test that I'm not really prepared.. and there are several things due this week.

Wanted to catch up with Julia, Venetia, Alvin and Nancy tomorrow by visiting Melb Uni in the morning again, but looks like that's not going to happen. I'm excited about the Speech Pathology Clinic observation tomorrow, but it's depriving me of my weekly catch up ): I can't go to Donut Grow Group (the Grace Church first year uni cell) tomorrow night either cause I've too many assignments and too many things to do!!! AH.. I think I'm going to pop soon.

If you see "Miss I'll-bite-your-head-off-if-you-don't-pass-me-the-salt", you know why.

There's this urgent need to get organised. This has become unfamiliar since November 13- the official end of Year 12. But now it's starting to creep back in.

When I say it's been bad.. it's bad. It's not really for any good reason, just because of the influx of assignments, upcoming exams.. and the stress that I'm just not used to. One thing for sure, I can't wait till the holidays, even if it's going to be in the midst of a cold and wet winter.

I've got FUNGUS/101 "THIRSTY" CAMP to look forward to.. and maybe even Studentlife MYC.

I wish I could whistle.. then I could whistle the song "Always Look on the Bright Side of Life" whenever I feel that little bit down and cheer myself up. People who can whistle, you have a gift, treasure it. LOL.

Pics from Andrea's 18th on Saturday night (:

Made a new friend, Mish Van! (:

Sarah Yeo, Euikuk (new friends!) and Jenny (:
It was nice meeting Jenny again after so long.
I love catching up with old friends.

The Birthday Girl

A few of us chipped in to get a Pandora ring (:
I think she really loved it, so WELL DONE GUYS!!
We also got Jon to propose to her. I'm pretty sure he enjoyed doing it.
LOL.

I really should be going to a lecture now. Should make lateness "my thing".

Happy 18th Birthday
Andrea Davine Fertile Chang!
(that's got to be the 5th time I'm saying it today, but O WELL!)

I dropped off a random letter in her postbox today on the way to the city..

We've battled raging seas
We've survived and conquered pilates
Despite your sweet obsession
Despite your delayed comprehension
Thanks for this friendship
Thanks for the smiles to keep

That's really all I have to say. HAHA.
I thought it was a pretty great poem considering I wrote it at past midnight.

The word "fragile" has been popping into my subconscious the past few days.

I think that we as humans are so fragile in so many ways.

Most of us can be broken as a result of a single word. For example, some can people suffer from Anorexia for years and years because someone they love and respected told them they were "fat". Or some are unable to shower their children with love and care because once upon a time when they themselves were children, their parents failed to make them feel like they were worth anything. 4 simple words, "you're not good enough" can dash someone's dreams and hinder or destroy any potential they ever had in doing great things.

No matter how tough or confident we may seem, the truth is that beneath the surface, all of us are broken in one way or another. Honestly, I believe that we all hide some of our brokenness.. it's something we don't speak to anyone about. I know there are somethings I can only confide in God. I just wish we all didn't have to cover it. I'm actually really thankful that we can't hide anything from God.. I'm grateful that He knows when I'm hurting, when I'm broken, when I'm doubting, when I'm dejected and when I'm tempted. I'm grateful that He still loves me so much despite knowing my sinful nature; the inner nature that is not often seen by others.

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Anyways.. another thought that comes with the word "fragile". Life.

On the way back home from soccer on Saturday, Sam, Steph, Margaret and I got into an accident. It was quite a shocking experience, but thank God none of us were hurt or traumatised. The front bumper of their huge car was knocked and scratched a bit.. and the other person's mercedes was just slightly dented. Thank God for Sam's fast reaction in breaking so skillfully.

But after tha accident, all these questions came into my mind.

What if our car was moving that little bit faster, would the Mercedes have flipped with the driver still in it?
What if we were in a smaller car, would we have been smashed?
What if I got into a really bad accident one day?
What would it feel like to lose a friend in a car accident?

It's all quite overwhelming.. but it just reminded me that life is but a vapour in the wind. It can be taken from us and anyone we love anytime God wills. You could just be walking along the street and some random car could just come and knock us down, taking our life in the process. At the end of the day.. maybe we should start focusing on what's important in life and being grateful for all things.

We tend to take friends from granted the more often we see them, but I encourage everyone to show your friends you love them. Even if it's just a simple note or a phone call, show them that you cherish their friendship and that you recognise their worth. We also take our family for granted way too often.. but sometimes just doing a little more housework or asking our parents how their day was shows them you love them.

I dare say, Love never hurt anyone.

" Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelery and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight."

(1 Peter 3: 3-4)

Something funny happened this evening..

It happened when Isaac and I were rushing out of the house to collect a pizza from La Porcheta.

Isaac: Hey Sha, did you bring the house keys out?

Me: No, I didn't! Left my wallet at home.

Isaac: Nevermind! Come back and ting tong lah!


Man o man o man.

I know I need You
I need to love You
I love to see You, but it's been so long
I long to feel You
I feel this need for You
And I need to hear You, is that so wrong?


Now You pull me near You
When we're close, I fear You
Still I'm afraid to tell You, all that I've done
Are You done forgiving?
Oh can You look past my pretending?
Lord, I'm so tired of defending, what I've become
What have I become?

I hear You say,
"My love is over. It's underneath.
It's inside. It's in between.
The times you doubt Me, when you can't feel.
The times that you question, 'Is this for real? '
The times you're broken.
The times that you mend.
The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.

Well, My love is over, it's underneath.
It's inside, it's in between.
These times you're healing, and when your heart breaks.
The times that you feel like you're falling from grace.
The times you're hurting.
The times that you heal.
The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal.
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain.
I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame.
I'm there through your heartache.
I'm there in the storm.
My love I will keep you, by My pow'r alone.
I don't care where you fall, where you have been.
I'll never forsake you, My love never ends.
It never ends."