I really should be sleeping right now, but I feel a need to blog.

I've been reading my past diary entries that I've handwritten as well as the previous posts on this blog and my msnspace blog. It's subtle, but I think I've changed over the years.

As I read through one or two entries from each year starting from 2004 till now.. I can see myself losing my innocence and trust in others. It's quite a sad thing. But I guess that's what happens when we grow up. There are only a few privileged people who get to retain that innocence despite being exposed to the world as it is, like EH! CHIN. LOL.

I could tell I was losing my trust in others as well as my innocence when I realised my posts became increasingly less honest and frank. Maybe it's cause I realised that people aren't as 'nice' as I thought they were.

There are some topics that are supposed to be kept under the radar. Hushed. Ignored. Unspoken of. But the truth is, a few things have been bugging my poor mind the past few days and I'm getting frustrated.

Why is it that many of us know what's right and wrong; what is pleasing to God and what is not, yet we refuse to do what's right in His eyes? We choose to follow along with the rest of the world and its pagan practices. Instead of looking for God to fill that void, we look to alcohol, wild parties, the excitement that comes with lustful desires.

We're meant to be the church, the Bible that others read. Yet, time and time again, we fail to be the ambassadors that God has called us to be. We lose self-control and surrender ourselves to pleasures this world can offer.. and fail to consider what it means for our friends around us who are looking to us for truth, for something that's NOT of this world. God doesn't expect any of us to be perfect, but there's something terribly wrong we choose to close one eye to a problem that obviously exists within the body of Christ.

Don't be ignorant. Be alert and prayerful.
The Bible has said that "the time is near"..
and if God says that, I'm not going to doubt Him.

We, as Christians, are meant to be set apart. We are meant to be different.
We're meant to live in view of eternity, not the present.
Everything of the world fades away eventually, but His word and His love remains forever.
Unfortunately, that's the truth we so often forget.

TODAY is a HAPPY DAY (:

Mostly because we won 3 - 0 for soccer against Western United!
I managed to scrape a goal in the last 5 minutes. Honestly, it was a really crappy shot that could've been saved easily if the goalie was more experienced. But O WELL (: A goal's a goal! WOO HOO. I'm so proud of everyone. We've improved so much as a team.

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Sadly, I think I've become to attached to people.
Friends in general, not really to any particular one.
Maybe that's the extroverted side of me acting up.

In the last 4 hours, I've been checking Facebook, MSN and my email seeking for interaction with the world outside these 4 walls.

I like being by myself sometimes, especially when I'm praying or waiting on God. But I can't be isolated for long periods of time. It's just torture for me. I'm not really looking for conversations.. I think I just like being around people (:

Last time I had to stay at home for 2 or so weeks studying for my year 12 exams..

this was the outcome..


that's the extent of how crazy I get when I'm alone for too long.

I should lock myself up in a room. Isolated and in solitude.
We'll see how long I can last.

I'm such a freak. LOL.

"While they were stoning him, Stephen prayed, 'Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.' Then he fell on his knees and cried out, 'Lord, do not hold this sin against them.' When he had said this, he fell asleep."

(Acts 7:59-60)

Imagine getting stoned ruthlessly by random people because of your faith in God. I know that if someone threw a rock at me and tried to hurt me, my eyes would be filled with tears and there would be immense anger in my every breath. Then I would possibly retaliate in the spur of the moment by picking up a decent sized rock and tossing it at those "stupid idiots".

Stephen not only didn't retaliate, he prayed for those people who had no qualms about hurting him. Whenever I think about it, I'm just left in silence and in wonder. This was a man who reflected the very nature of Jesus and really understood what he meant when he said "love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you".

OK GUYS. I know it's a shock with this new skin.
I decided to change it to this basic template cause I got really sick of the other one. The font has always been a little too small.

ANYWAYS..

This is the way it's going to be till I find a better template.
Or get around to making one myself (:

Sorry for conforming. I didn't mean to.

O wait, I did. HAHA.

Time for my random gallery of pictures (:

Ever sat in a lecture with only 2 others?

"MUMMY, I WANT A MANNEQUIN!"

Infamous arse penalties.

Liverpool - you'll never walk alone.
Hah.

THE YUMMIEST LA TROBE WEDGES (:
Full of crunchy goodness.
Has the power to make my day O so special.

Last night, WE GOT SHAUN GOH GOOD (:

I really hope you enjoyed yourself Shaun.
It was all part of the plan to make your birthday enjoyable for you,
no ill intentions whatsoever.

I did enjoy myself thoroughly..
even though I wasn't involved in throwing eggs or flour or ice at you..
..not at all.

LOL.

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Pictures from Sound Relief Concert!
Andrea finally uploaded them on Facebook.

Where's Adrienne?

Heart throb.

Gabriella "Kill-me!"

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Friday night was Julia's 18th party.

It was really fun and it was probably one of the craziest parties I've been to. Not only because of the crazy dancing which I quite enjoyed, but because of the amount of drinking.

Seriously.. like people, just CHILL with the drinks already. Haha..

Val, looking like a jello-alcoholic.
So.. colourful.

Trampoline fun (:

If you ever read this:

HAPPY 18th JULIA!
Even though I've just met you a bit more than a week ago, I'm really glad to have made a friend like you. You've got to be one of the most sweetest, kindest and awesomest friends I know (: Being 18 may not make a whole lot of difference to you cause you don't intend to drink and get wasted, but I really hope your relationship with God will deepen even more now that you're a responsible young adult (: Keep pursuing him, especially when it gets tough. It's not easy being old.
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Here are some pictures to reminisce over our dear friend Gabriel Goh who is now officially in the National Armed Forces of Singapore.

Have fun, don't die, Gabby Goh.
We really miss you already.

GRACE CHURCH CAMP..


It was a bunch of fun (: I really enjoyed myself.
I had such a great time meeting so many new people. After hearing so much about each person from Grace Church, it was awesome to finally meet them. Some of them are such amazing people.

















I love camps! Not only do you get to spend some good quality time with friends, but you get to make so many new friends as well. I really love it how strangers can become friends in just one short moment. Just one "HI" can be the start of a beautiful friendship.

Sometimes we speak to angels without even realising.

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Gabby Goh has gone back to Singapore. He left 2 days ago.
It was a such a depressing goodbye at the airport.
I really hate the airport.
But like I've heard many times, people only part to meet again.

Will miss you very very much.
I'll miss talking to you so comfortably and so openly.
I'll miss whining to you about driving and school work.
I'll miss your "you're crazy" looks.
I'll miss your tall presence.
I'll reeaally reaally miss you tremendously.
Will be praying for you too!
Hurry, finish army and get your arse back here, Gabby!!! (: