When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

-When You're Gone, Avril Lavigne

What beautiful lyrics (:

Even though the term 2 hols have officially begun, I don't feel much freedom. That's because I feel like I've got so much to do. Fungus camp is coming up next week and I think I'll have to go shopping for a dress for the Princess, Prince and Pea theme night. Especially since I'm MCing. I'm afraid I'm really running out of time... sigh. Plus, I need to do some work this week so that I don't have TOO MUCH to do next week.

I almost forgot about my commitment to mentioning someone doing something touching for me every week. There were several times where I was moved, but I kinda forgot most of it. That's why is always good to note them down before I forget. Humans forget easily.

When I recall something, I'll shall blog. Right now my mind is as blank as a sheep.

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Went for supper with peeps from Fungus after Fungus/101 finished. It was a good supper. Hadn't had one of those in ages. Actually got to catch up with Gabby, Alvin, Audrey and Franny (: Isaac and Gabby were such idiots; having a competition of who can place their finger in hot tea for a longer period of time. Their painful expressions as they screamed in agony was hilarious. I may sound sadistic, but it was really quite funny.

In the midst of constantly thinking about the overwhelming chain of events that are coming up.. God has blessed me with little things to be thankful about.. and to put a uncontainable smile on my face ((: He is good!

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Joce is coming to Melb really really soon. I really wonder what it'd be like having her here with us. She'll finally be able to experience a little of our Aussie lives (: I'm sure she'll end up enjoying herself to the fullest.. and end up not wanting to leave Aust. Hahaha..

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Have you ever wondered what it feels like to be constantly trapped in a tunnel of darkness? I was thinking about this question while I was sitting on the train and people watching. I guess life is really like an endless tunnel of darkness. We find ourselves lost in an arena of pointless desires and endless strife. It's so easily to just be blinded by everything around us. Very dangerous indeed.

What does it truly mean to take up our cross and follow Jesus?

This innocence is brilliant,

I hope that it will stay

This moment is perfect,

please don't go away

I need you now

And I'll hold on to it

Don't you let it pass you by

(Innocence by Avril Lavigne)

Yvonne and her mum went back to S'pore yesterday. She was here over the last week because to attend a friend's wedding. It was really awesome having her around the house. I was studying for my exams for most the week, but at least I got to spend some time with her.

I think I got to know her a lot better. So ironic how I only get to really know her better only in Aust. Haha. In some sense, it was heart-warming having her around the house with Aunty Eileen. Every other day she would come home with a random present after touring around Melb city or the outskirts. She came back with NERDS one day, a plant another day and another day, a pink whale toy. So thoughtful in these little ways, never failed to cheer me up in the midst of my stressful exams. Thanks VON-MA (: You're missed!

Noodles galore! Good old mee goreng, Lobster noodles with XO sauce (instant one) and Abalone noodles!!!


Jan and the gigantic mug.
My pants totally wrecked the gangster look.

Ann's pout? hahaha..
The MI3 pigs - Jan, Jelly and Zac

Ann and I were still watching 'Taiyou no Uta', the serial version of 'Midnight Sun'. We only managed to watch 2 episodes. Jan slept first, followed by Zac and Jelly while watching MI3. What pigs.

We took these photos WITH FLASH and they still didn't wake up. Amazing.

The next morning, Zac and I went to Dandenong to spend some time with Yvonne and Aunty Eileen. So we left the Twins and Jelly at home to sleep as much as they want. BUT. Adrienne Kher, ended up raiding our pantry (as usual) and stole our Maltesers -.= Jan and Jelly also 'decorated' our rooms with toliet paper and news paper cuttings. They also managed to cook themselves somemore Mee Goreng for breakfast. My grandma was like 0.o Hahaha.

Looks like our home has become their 'second home'.

Anyways...

Got my Methods SAC back today. It was horrible. LOL. Sometimes I can't help but think that I'm a person who crumbles under pressure. I'm such a coward. I need to have more confidence in myself I guess.. but then again, it's so easy to fall into pride once I start thinking positive thoughts. And WHEN I do, God never fails to remind me that it's really not my talents and that it's not about me at all.

Pride is such a stupid feeling. Who am I to think less of others, when I, myself, am so weak?

At least something good came out of my poor results in Methods - inspiration to write a poem! Haha. Haven't written one in a gazillion years.

For A Moment

Underneath my skin
I feel a pressure closing in.
It leaves me breathless
For that one second,
Clouding my mind
For a moment too long.

Trying to find excuses
Make up for my weaknesses.
It leaves me wanting
for that one minute,
Crowding my mind
For a moment too long.

Written on my heart
The greatest truth of all.
It leaves me singing
for a nameless time,
Freeing my soul
For a moment of eternity.

By Jerusha Ho

Mid years are finally finally over ((: The moment the invigilator said 'stop writing' I felt sooooooo free. Like this weight had been removed from my shoulders. I could finally walk with a slight skip in my stride, instead of dragging my feet as a result of weariness.

Went to watch Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian with the Twins, Nancy, M.K and Florence. The movie was top notch. I was quite impressed with it.. thought it was better than Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. It consisted of humour, romance, action all chucked together; producing a classic (: We were suppose to be sort of celebrating Susan's birthday, but ended up splitting into 2 groups. The rest went to watch Sex and the City.

I found the movie incredibly touching.. not only because of the drama involved. But it I could clearly see the Christian message embedded within the movie. The relationship the Narnians and the 4 children had with Aslan was sort of reflecting our relationship with God.

Sometimes we think that God has sort of abandoned us to fend for ourselves, hence the suffering and pain in this world. We choose not to seek Him, thinking that if He really was that great, he would show Himself to us in some glorious and spectacular way. We keep expecting Him to come back and rescue us, without realising that we are the ones who should be searching for Him.

Then, there are times where we just don't wish to see Him. We live under a thick blanket of lies. Thinking that we can do things on our own, thinking that we can live in this world without Him.

As you can see, the movie really got me thinking about quite a bit of stuff.

I love this movie, it's one of the most meaningful movies ever (:

Can't wait to get the DVD when it comes out! (((:

Jelly, Jan and Ann came over for a sleepover last night. It was so darn fun. Haha. We watched School for Scoundrels (which was surprisingly quite good) and STARDUST. Then Ann and I ended up watching a Jap drama serial which is very very similar to the Jap movie- Midnight Sun, while Jelly and Zac watched MI 3. Jan was like the biggest pig ever, sleeping before anyone else. Shall blog more about it when I've sorted out the photos.

TIME to sleeep.....

Before I embark on my mission to be totally entranced in the world of Biology and Chemistry, I need to blog. Preparation, so far, has been pretty progressive and on track. I find it strange how I seem to be doing so much work this year compared to last year.. and yet, I don't seem to be doing as well as last year. Not that I've been doing badly, but it's just that for the amount of input, the output does not seem to be corresponding. Haha.

I think I'm going a little mad.

I've decided that I'm going to try to blog at least ONCE every week about something special someone has done for me. Even if it's something incredibly small.
I want to start noticing little things that people do for me..

On Thursday, I was waiting for my parents to finish their grocery shopping at the supermarket. While waiting, I was reading some very insightful chemistry notes. To my surprise, my dad came walking towards me with a cup of Chai tea in his hands (((: It was one of the best cups of Chai tea I've ever had, even though it was a little too sweet. O so warm (:

Yvonne Cheong, a.k.a AH MA, is here with her mum! Haha. They're with my parents and Aunty Alicia's family at Great Ocean Road. Chilling together in a nice house somewhere, while I'm stuck here in Melbourne studying. Spoke to her just then, it was nice hearing a familliar voice from Singapore (: Haven't spoken with anyone in Singapore for quite a while. I miss Joce, Tab and Lydia.

Actually, I haven't spoke to quite a few people for a while. I made a promise to myself to make sure I catch up with those people after exams. I can't stand being so constricted with time. I FEEL SO DEPRIVED! LOL.

It's actually not that bad. It could be tonnes worst (:
Thank God for the beautiful cold weather.
Thank God for the chance to have an education.
Thank God for giving me hands to do the exams with.
Thank God for giving me a brain, even if it's malfunctioning a little, at least I have one that functions (:
THANK GOD FOR EVERY EVERY EVERYTHING (: