Lydia, Isaac, Joce and I are all in this pic.. LOL.

It's weird not hearing the voices I've been (positively) bombarded with the last 7 weeks or so.


I really miss the mornings I would wake up with Lydia and Tab still sleeping like pigs.. and I'd have to wake them up with my loud but very useful sneeze (: As well as having to deliver several blows to their lazy bums with a pillow.

I miss the times we played lan together.. and my heart would beat so fast because I was using such an exciting hero in DOTA. Then Lydia would use her idiotic Zeus with an ulti that's an absolute legal cheat. Tab would use her stupid lizard that's spits green 'snort-like' stuff here and there.

I miss the late nights at the very beautiful but often ignored fountain. Our meeting point as well as the place where we would part. Too bad I didn't get to see the water coming outta the fountain this time round. I remember it being quite pretty (:

I miss the long long long talks I had with my lovely godsister. Especially the time we drank corn soup from MOS Burger. I feel so comfortable everytime I talk to Joce.. never had to be afraid of being judged cause I knew I was talking to someone who loves me very much.

I miss the prayer meetings and worship practices at Public Mansion. The place we met every Sunday since we were cute little kiddies. Filled with beautiful, entertaining and unforgettable memories that will never fail to put a wide smile on my face. Also, the walks to Shaw Plaza to eat Maccas for dinner and waiting at the bus stop for the not-so-frequent bus '130' to come.

All of us are in this pic (:

I miss the times we had on the MRT. Where I had to be the pillar, ever so stable and balanced, while the more unco (uncordinated) and unbalanced people clung on to me. The times I stepped on the feet of random singaporeans, only to get a hostile 'TSK' and an evil glare as a reply.

I miss the very short youth meetings we would have after tea in church. The random games (Hai dai, hai dai, hai dai..) and the praise sessions really made me feel bonded to this very special family. Just the smiles on everyone's faces and the fun we could have together despite all our differences was really heart warming.

I miss getting bagged for my absolute dumbness. Like the time I tripped at the bowling alley and got a bruise on my chin. The black mark that caused hours of humiliation and taunting from my dear, loving friends.

I miss looking over the letters that I wrote to Lydia over the years and finding out that I was loved more than I thought I was. Too bad I've to wait a long while before I actually get those unfinished presents.

I miss having talks with my dear cuzzie into the wee hours of the morning and just having her by my side at every family gathering. Talking to her on the phone to arrange where she should go and where she should stay almost everyday. Her smiles everytime my eyes started to well up in tears and how she would always care.

This picture made me laugh out loud.

Just realised that there's a lot I miss. Haha.
I think I should put the rest in my dairy (:

I'm back in good old Australia.. having left goodie goodie oldie oldie Singapore.

I have to say.. our goodbyes were quite rushed and I didn't have time to soak that moment all in. I walked through the departure gate with an extremely heavy heart.. but I wiped my tears away and held them in, cause I didn't want people around to stare.


From the gate to the plane, I was fine as a chicky. I thought all my tears had dried up. But to no surprise, once I started reading those three 'evil' letters while listening to 'Tonight'.. I felt more than tears. My heart was really aching. I just had to look down, use my irritating long fringe to cover everything.


Partly, it was cause, SOMEBODY didn't sign off. LOL.


But God proved faithful, yet again. I opened the book that Sarah gave me as a farewell prezzie.. 'The Music of His Promises'. God reminded me that He is with me always.. even at that very moment. I didn't have to feel alone because He was right there with me. He was going to be with me through this pain. He promised in His word..

"Be assured, I am with you always, to the end of time" (Matt 28:20)

Got my memories

And they will last

I try to keep it simple cause I hate goodbyes

I try to keep it simple by telling myself that I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through

There is so much I could say

But words get in the way

So when we're not together

I will remember you

Why do I feel like I'm running out of time?
Why do I cry?
Is it because I have no faith in these friendships?
Is it because I believe that change is going to throw it all down the drain?

I found that I do love asking questions..
Asking myself, as well as others.

I guess life and friends are never certain.
But I'll take each day God has given me to be a blessing to others.

As Adrienne reminded me of something I said once when I was thinking of leaving Fungus. I think it should be the line I live by. Haha..

Wherever God takes me,
I want to have left footprints where I've walked.

I'd really hate to lose a friend.

I'm really tired.
Spent the whole day with Joce and Zac at Sentosa.
Going back to the Most Southern Point of Asia where the two towers were reminded me of the time Lydia and I were there. I remember just sitting there with Lydia. I listened to music and enjoyed the cool sea breeze while she slept like a pig. Lydia and I also tried making a sandcastle at Palawan beach (I know the name of the beach cause Isaac and I kept repeating it to entertain ourselves), but it didn't look much like a castle. It was more like a footprint with a dodgy arrow. It's a beautiful fake beach.

Joce, Zac and I ended up doing almost the exact same thing. Just sitting there enjoying the breeze and the view of stationary ships sitting on the horizon... AND OF COURSE, listening to happy happy music. It was fun.. even in the silence of it all (:

We wanted to take the Luge and the Skyride, but decided to spend all our time at Palawan beach and at VIVO city.

Saw the very lovely fake ponies once again.

After that, we bought some DVDs and went to Joce's house to watch 'Harry Potter: The Order of the Pheonix'. I have to say, it was pretty thrilling with a fairly interesting plot. Got me on the edge of the sofa 3/4 of the movie. Chiu and Harry are so cute together (: It was strange how the Mistletoe popped out of nowhere though.

Lydia Liao joined us soon after.

Isaac's going back to Aust this friday.
Though it's not me going back, It's making me so so so so afraid.
I'm afraid of the day I have to say goodbye, yet again.

Why does it have to be a continuous cycle of reuniting and then cruel seperation?
What would it be like if one day I didn't have to leave after coming back?
What would be different?

I've learnt to cherish and to hold on.
I've learnt to deal with disappointment and loss.
I've learnt to be that little bit stronger and to love that little bit more.

Loving someone involves a lot more than just cherishing them for their good qualities, but cherishing them even in view of all their imperfections and weaknesses.

It's hard to truly love someone. It really is.

Maybe if I never left Singapore, I would never be able to really understand what it means to cherish a friend or to love a friend so much that it could hurt sometimes.

God has His ways.

SIN CHAO everybody (:

I'm in Vietnam this very moment. Haha.. blogging in Vietnam. That's something I never thought I'd be doing. Thank God for the free internet at this hotel.

Now we're in Sappa.. it's somewhat quite WOOPIE WOOP. We're in a windy valley surrounded by mountain ranges and countless hills. As Isaac has been saying.. the scenery would really take your breath away. Wish I could share this experience with you guys.

Vietnam has been pretty good. Went to Hanoi for the first few days and then to Ha Long Bay. Some random tourist described Hanoi as 'Hanoise'.. SHE HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD. It's always ringing with honks and the sound of motorcycles throughout the day. It's kinda of annoying.. but I guess it's what makes Hanoi different. EVERYONE has motorcycles.. and traffic lights are almost non-existent here. Motorists just manage to weave in and out so beautifully in a ridiculously overcrowded traffic intersection. It's quite amazing. Have yet to see an accident.

Sappa is quite different from Hanoi. It's more remote and quiet, much less motorists around. The Black H'mong tribal people are SO COOL. It's like the postcards have come alive before my very eyes. I've finally got to see the very people and things I've seen in documentaries and pictures all my life (: Many pictures from this journey will be up very soon.

Last night we had to take an overnight train ride from Hanoi to Sappa. It was SO CRAMPED. HAHA. Cramped and cosy (: I shall say more when I'm able to put pictures up. Pictures can speak a thousand billion words. I shall not tire my fingers.

I think I'd be having a much better time if I wasn't 'homesick'. I'm MISSING SINGAPORE SO MUCH. Or I should say, the people in Singapore. I miss I miss I miss....

I've to go now.. BYE.

Going to Vietnam today! Haha.. considering that it's already past 12am.

How time has past. I haven't actually been in Singapore for very long.

But it feels like it always does everytime I come back - like home.



Home is where the heart is. I still feel that my heart is here, in Singapore.

Too bad the body can't always be where the heart is. LOL.



Went night cycling yesterday. It was such an experience.

Not that good, not that bad.

The bike seats were absolutely terrible, I think I've a few bruises on my bum.

We cycled for a total of 5 to 6 hours with a lot of rests in between.

Dodgy bikes. But thank God for them anyways. Made the ride a lil more interesting.


Our group of 10 consisted of Isaac's friends, Sam Quek, Shawn Chang, Jeremy Goh, Isaac himself... Isaac Yip, Mark Yeun, Tab, Lydia, Gavin and I! It was quite a big and lively group.. definitely a fun group.

I was quite touched when Isaac's friends, people whom I barely knew, stopped to help me at one point when my bike broke down. Good friends indeed.

The whole journey was extremely tiring and painful, but it was also fun and exciting. Almost got stopped by the police twice.. but only received warnings for travelling on the wrong side of the road. Our only casualty was Shawn Chang, which only happened because he tried to ride the bike without hands.

We came across some transvestites at Changi Village.. and the guys were given a scare. Had Nasi Lemak and Milo Dinosaur as a reward for all the hardwork. Then cycled back to the Jetty at East Coast to catch some sleep, as well as the sunrise. In the end, we ended up freezing to death and the sunrise was non-existent, I simply witnessed the sky getting brighter. Thank God for the umbrellas we had with us which we used as wind breakers. Felt like refugees and also, retards.

Lydia became a mad woman thanks to the chilling wind.

Tab slept like a pig as usual with the cardigan over her head.

Yippy and Mark were standing firm throughout the time there without any complaints. They didn't even sleep a wink. That's what I call pro.

Gavin was an emotional kid whose skin was very thick.

Isaac and his friends were somewhere.

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Came home and slept till 6.30pm.
Felt so refreshed when I saw Joce's face (: HAHA.
Had dinner at MAMA's house with Tab, Lydia, Joce and Isaac.
Watched one episode of 'Zhuan Jiao Yu Dao Ai' together.

Then sent tab to the bus stop and went to get Lydia's mudpie from Maccas.
I ended up trying the new 'Twister Fries'.. I still think it's nothing compared to A&W's awesome awesome awesome, fantastisch curly fries.
Had a good talk with Lydia and Joce.
I'll miss these moments.
I think every second I get to spend with them is worth getting told off for coming home at 12am. I won't have the chance to do this for a very long time, soon.

I pray that you'll always remember the way I am.

2007 was an absolute blast (:

I learnt many lessons, went through my fair share of heartache and tears

as well as a whole lot of fun and joy.

I believe the greatest blessings God has given to me in the year 2007 are my friends. Friends in school, in Fungus, in the family growth group and of course, in SINGAPORE (: Friends down under have made this year pass by in a flash. When you're having fun, time passes by fast, right? Haha. 

My school year was so different from the past school years. Sometimes I actually looked forward to go to school because of my friends. WOW. Next year, classes and everything will change. Hopefully I'll still find fun in the midst of the stress and the seriousness. I'm sure next year will be full & full of tears and pain as well as a lot of moulding and refining. I believe God is going to show me how much I need to rely on His strength, rather than my own abilities through the whole of this year. So to all the hardwork and stress that is going to come... all I can say is 'JUST BRING IT' (:

My dear FUNGUS buddies.. Adrienne, Sarah and Audrey.

My knitting grannies club. Whatever whatever club. Haha. I love all of you very much. Thank you, thank you, thank you so much for your constant encouragements, especially through the somewhat tough times (especially for my battle with Chinese). Thanks for the fun & laughter that you've added to this life of mine.  Thank you...

Audrey: For opening your heart and your very confusing thoughts to me. For loving my mum more than you love me. O yea.. for loving Nick's wall more than you love me too.

Adrienne: For being the ultimate lame crapper you are. For sharing moments with me where we can laugh about the randomest things or things that make absolutely no sense.

Sarah: For being so innocent and kind-hearted. For always amusing me by just being yourself (:

I know that I can always count on you guys to be there for me whenever I need you.. thanks for caring for me and letting me be part of your lives (: 

My AWESOME GROWTH GROUP BUDDIES.

VAL, VENETIA, CHARMAINE, DAN & WES. You guys ROCK.

It's really sad everytime I think of the possibility that our growth group might be splitting into two. I can't imagine not seeing you guys at least twice a week. The lunches, the fishing trips, the tennis, the soccer, the growth group meetings, guitar sessions, Singstaring together.... Thanks for all the countless weird as stories that you guys never seem to run out of and for making 2007 such an enjoyable and crazy year. Not forgetting the occasional D&M sleep overs (:

FINALLY.

SINGAPORE.. SINGAPORE..  Where I still find my heart lingering.

Tabitha Anna Tan. How I love you my dearest dearest cuzzie and friend. Thanks for not giving me the need to send you emails throughout the whole year. I really thank God that we can still remain such close cuzzies even while we're separated by the many miles. I just want you to know I love you a lot a lot. I await the day where there will be absolute transparency between us, but I think there's a lot of work to do.. especially on my part. 

My precious godsister. I love you. I can't say it enough. I know I'm not the most transparent person, but I promise to try to open up myself in this coming year. I'm sorry for not being able to do so. I'm very happy to say that I've never doubted our friendship despite the distance and time apart that tell me I should. I've placed you in a very special place in my heart and I believe you will always be there (: You're more than a friend, you're my duckie godsis.

Lydia Liao. I don't even know where to start. Thank you for this friendship. Although you weren't physically around for more than 3/4 of 2007, you still made a huge impact on my life. Thank you for letting me care for you, for letting me be your friend. Thank you for holding on to this friendship that is not really tied together by any other bond other than love between two friends. Sometimes I really wish that we were illerate, then we'd be forced to say whatever we manage to say in letters, face to face. I love you very much, my friend. I guess that's why I don't want you carry your burdens by yourself.

I hate not being able to say what's obvious 

& what's on my heart.

2008. Here I come.