I've been in Singapore for a total of only about 2 weeks, but so much drama has happened during this extremely short span of time. So much that I'm wondering what God is trying to do to me. Haha..

The past few times back, I've always managed to say that I've been having the greatest time of time of my life. Everything being very very enjoyable and fun.. and usually the 'bad & dramatic things' would happen at the end of my stay. But God has put me through a lot of drama. The absolute roller coaster of emotions. A lot of ambiguity and confusion.. a fair bit of disappointment and tears I guess. I didn't know what to expect before coming to this congested small dot. But I guess, now I know. There's still about 3 weeks left before I go back to Aust. Let's see what else God has in stored (:

One lesson I've learned so far.. to trust God in EVERYTHING and trust Him to make the difference, especially when you feel helpless. Cause when we feel helpless, God will break through and show us that He is God and that we need Him.

One more thing I've realised.. God is the only one who truly knows a person's heart. A person's thoughts do not always reflect the way they act or what they say. Even the nicest angelic person can be a devil in disguise. Even the most rebellious child can have a really good heart. A person might be saying words with ultimate conviction, but feeling something totally different. I wish I had the wisdom and discernment to read the hearts and minds of people. But that's God's job (:

But then again, I believe that even though people try to hide who they really are, they will be exposed in the end. True colours will always show.

Oh oh.. one more thing. Someone once asked me what was the point of confiding in friends when we are sad. I was thinking about last night and I think that the reason is that.. It's such a wonderful blessing to have someone trust you enough to confide in you in the moments where they feel the weakest, the moments where they feel the most hurt, in the moments where nothing seems to be going right. Confiding in a friend during your saddest moment would probably make that friend feel special. Imagine someone trusting you enough to tell you what's weighing down their heart. That to me, is how true best friends should be like with each other. No fear of judgement whatsoever.

Lydia asked me if I actually confided in anyone when I'm sad. I couldn't really name someone that I talk to when I'm sad. When I'm really sad, I pray. Cause I know God is the only one who can accept me exactly the way I am and I know that no one else can love me as much as He does. So I guess, God and only God, is my best friend.

Christmas. This year, it felt so different. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed with the commercialism and commotion that I forget the true meaning of Christmas. I think God should chuck me somewhere by myself so that I can just sit there and spend time with Him alone. I keep getting distracted and I keep putting other things above Him. I know I shouldn't, but I lack the discipline and self-control on so many occasions.

I can feel a difference everytime I fail to spend time with God. Unknowingly, more lies tend to fill my head. I guess that's what happens when I'm not immersing myself in the truth. When I'm not hearing His loving voice, I begin to doubt myself more, to have more negative thoughts and become that little bit more emo, that little bit more selfish.

Time to reflect on all that's happened this year.
Time to look forward to what God has installed for me next year (:

What do you have to offer to God when all is stripped away?
This question struck many, many cords in my heart.

Singapore in 3 days time.
So many things go through my mind when I think about it.
I really don't know what to expect.
Every time I go back, it's an adventure in a special way.

I've been hearing a lot of comments about long-distance friendships.
Some of the adults have been saying that although friendships may still go strong at my age. Once we all start working, our values and attitudes will change.. and then it'll be harder to find common ground. Then Vernis mentioned to Audrey the other day that eventually she'll grow distant to her friends in Malaysia.. and maybe even forget their birthdays.

Man. What a thought.
Will that day ever come for me?
It's very very foreboding.
AHHH. Go away stupid day.
I shall never let you come Xp

Went out with Sheryl and MK to watch The Bee Movie today. It was quite alright. The starting of the film was very intriguing, but towards the end, the movie was kinda wrecked. Although, I have to say, the quite moral of the story is not bad. Every job, no matter how small, is very important to the big picture.

Went to Singapore Chom Chom after the movie. I had Nasi Lemak. It was pretty good. BUT THE CHILLI WAS A KILLER. I almost cried. But the Ikan Billis, Luncheon meat, the chicken cutlet... YUMMY as. It was quite awkward when we ran into MK's dad in the same resturant. He ended up giving Sheryl and I a treat, what a gentlemanly dad. I also ran into JACILYN in the same resturant and GABBY GOH thereafter as we were walking towards Melbourne Central. What a small little world.

Went for Sonja & Qynnie's wedding rehersal last night. It was quite a pleasant experience, though we didn't get to practice 'This Love' because we weren't ready yet. I loved the part where Sonja walked up the aisle with her dad and there waiting in the front was Qynnie, full of smiles. I love the part where Sonja's dad places Sonja's hand on Qynnie's.. just that moment. I could see a inexplicable joy in Sonja & Qynnie's faces. I felt really really, truly happy for them (:
Can't wait for the actual wedding day. It's going to be so special.

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

What beautiful lyrics..

These few days have been quite hectic. It was only today that I actually got to do some BIO and watch a movie at home.

Visited Danica's church on Sunday, it was pretty good. Reminded me so much of CCS.. it was a little smaller than CCS, but it felt so much more homely than Crossway. I could get use to it I reckon.. but it'll be a real testing of my faith and the drawing of courage to push pass the boundaries that are labelled 'IMPOSSIBLE'.

Went to Aunty Angie's house after church. Had a wonderful Japanese meal and awesome awesome AWESOME dessert :P The food she prepares is always so deliciously scrumptious and absolutely mouth-watering.

Yummy Custard Fruit Tarts

Ryan & Caitlin!

Ryan and Caitlin are SO cute! Their smiles are able to light up any dark day (: Sweet innocence that's not corrupted.. something to be treasured.

After the lunch, I headed over to Studley Boathouse for Sonja's Hen's Party. LOL. I missed the good stuff. But at least I played a tiny part in decorating her supposedly 'hideous' dress. I reckon it actually looked pretty good with the corny bridal sayings that we Janice, Nicole, Adrienne and I came up with.

Some of them were...

'Save me! I'm getting married!'

'Watch out! I'm gonna start an Asian invasion!'

'Beware! I cry.'

'I'm capable of a dozen.'

'Here comes the soccer team.'

'I love mother-in-laws.'

The Bridal Shower

Some highschoolers & some old(er) folks (:

The Ladder of Love

Franny is bad at directions (:

Sarah's stylish and artistic shot

I've been listening to 'Collide' by Howie Day.

Although I don't really totally understand what the song is about. But I love the chorus.

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

You somehow find, you and I collide

Went for an AWESOME AWESOME picnic yesterday. It was so fun! LOL.
Most of the food was sweet.. so it wasn't that great, but the company I had was priceless.

Us waiting at Melbourne Central for the 'late comers'

Untouched food, starving people.

Twins, Nancy, 超女呆呆 & I

Twins, Nancy, Florence, M.K & I

Lying under the pretty purple tree (:

Sloth circle. LOL.

Nancy & I

Us under the cooool purple tree

Me lagging quite badly.

Woo hoo. LOL. I'm a star-jump failure.

Crazy, wacky twins


Very joyful bunch.

We looked like we were doing warm-up exercises in the park.

I met my homies here. S53 and S54.

Thank God we left that fly infested place.


超女呆呆 & the Twins

My first time EVER on the Ferris Wheel.
It was such an experience. The view was so nice from the top (:
The breeze was even better, making the heat a little more bearable.

After half the group left, the 6 of us went to take sticker photos (:

Too bad Nancy couldn't come cause of her dental appointment, looks like she'll being going for her jaw operation with unfulfilled wishes Xp I just hope what I've been bagging her about these past few months doesn't actually happen. Now I feel bad bagging her about the possiblity that something really bad might happen to her during this OP. But I'm sure everything with go smooth and fine :S I shall be praying for you, Nancy!

Thanks for such an awesome time guys (:

Though I did got sunburnt at the end of the day, although I was irritated by annoying, persistent flies, although I got bagged more than half the time, IT WAS ALL WORTH IT! LOL.

Next year.. things might change between us. I really don't know either and I can't promise that we'll stay this way. But I know I'll never forget the wonderful times we've spent together, in and out of school (: HOPEFULLY, things won't change and we'll continue to have this much fun even in year 12. I choose to look the glass half full, rather than half empty. Hehe.

I really need to sleep earlier. I'm sleeping so late before I even go back to Singapore. My eyebags are becoming more and more evident. LOL. JERUSHA SLEEP!!!

Played tennis with Yippy, Isaac Ho (my bro) and Min Li (Yippy's friend). It was really fun! Haha.. I got sunburnt again. Seriously. At this rate, I'm gonna become a burnt toast with skin cancer. Not a good sight :P

B.O and I finally finished most of Sonja & Qynnie's Wedding song! WOO HOO..

Scream and shoutt!!!

Sounds quite good too (:

Now it's we've to finish the bridge off and figure out HOW to perform it in front of so many people on the wedding night. Hm.. I'm pretty sure I won't have the courage to sing in front of so many people, but we'll see how we go.

S&Q's wedding night is also the night I'm leaving for S'pore!!! O I CAN'T WAIT!!! Muahahaha..