I've really never felt like this in a long time.
And no, I'm not in love. LOL.
I've never felt so unbelievably stressed and pissed all at the same time.
I know it's pointless and trivial.. but I just keep thinking about it. Sensitivity kills me, seriously. I tend to ponder a lot on stuff that people say to me. Especially if it hurts a part of me. Even if it's a little hurt, it's still a wound that doesn't disappear. What's ridiculous is that it has mainly to do with my Chinese teacher.
It hurts when someone doesn't believe in your capabilities.
Every week I tell myself, I'm gonna prove her wrong. This week I thought I did, but my confidence still got ruthlessly wrecked. I wish I never did Chinese.
I loved Chinese, but now I just can't stand looking at my Chinese work.
Thanks to my teacher, a phobia of Chinese has erupted in me.
I've have been playing tennis with my dad to release all the frustration and stress in me. It kinda helps. But I feel that tennis is such a saddistic game. When I try to hit the ball really hard, the net just stops it so effortlessly.
My life has been pretty smooth for quite a while. No hiccups, no stumbles. But God is really making me rely on His strength this time.
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Ok. Now that I've ranted, I can go on to the happier stuff.
JELLY IS BACK! :)
I can't say I don't miss her, cause I do!
I miss her constant talkativeness and annoyance. LOL.
Janice and Yvette, my fellow Singaporeans, are also BACK! :)
My dear dad is also BACK after 2 whole months!!!
I really can't describe the amazing feeling of meeting close friends and family I haven't seen in a considerably long time. I love that feeling. I guess being able to meet a close friend after missing them for so long makes seperation not all that bad. At least, while they're gone, you start missing everything you love about them and, doing that, you learn to cherish them as well. We take friends and family for granted too often.
Tomorrow is Father's Day (: Our GG is going to a park.. hopefully we'll get to play some soccer. It's nice having my dad back. It's funny how my brother and my mum seem to get into all these trivial arguments about the same little things.. over and over again. Quiet annoying. My dad and I are usually the most 'peaceful' ones out of 4 of us. Me of course, being the most peaceful, patient and loving one. LOL.