Exams are coming up and I've got so much revision to get through Xp Especially for Chemistry and Psychology.. I've to try to revise more than 60% of it by this week so that next week I won't be too stressed up. Here's some encouragement for those who are going through tough exams, just like me, or even worse ones. Do your best and leave the rest to God! He's in control. No point stressing or worrying. Just remember who and what you're studying for!

Sometimes I wish some relationships didn't have to be so artificial. HI. BYE. And that's really all that you say to each other. I want to care more, but sometimes it's just awkward or artificial just to ask more questions about a person's life. It just doesn't seem normal or natural I guess. Maybe showing love is much simpler than I make it out to be :)

Played inter-school footy yesterday. Australian football. It's not soccer for those who don't know what aussie football is. It's the 'football' which consists of a 'ball' shaped like an oval shape (almost) and where you use your hands most of the time. NEways.. most of the games, I was playing striker and well, I got quite a lot of the ball. That means that I also got thrown around like a rag doll most of the time. I attempted to bring people down, but I kinda sucked at it.. LOL. There is not one violent bone in me :) Miraculously, I didn't get any bruises, although my muscles are aching to the core right now from taking so many falls.

After that, Bridget said "Jeru, stuff soccer and play footy for our club." But guess what I said?

"NO WAY! SOCCER OWNS FOOTY ANYDAY."

Yes, that's right. The truth was spoken. Soccer is SO MUCH more non-contact and strategic. I kind felt like I was in a wrestling match while playing footy. Haha.. altho I admit, it's quite fun (:

Hippos are viscious creatures - new known fact.

This is the song playing on my blog now. The lyrics is so so so meaningful. Keeps reminding me of Singapore. Friends far away, but forever close at heart. It's also my wish for my dear friends here in Australia (:

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left.
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get.
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And always give more than you take.
But more than anything, more than anything...

My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to.
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
you never need to carry more than you can hold.
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
This is my wish.

-My Wish by Rascal Flatts

Contrasting menacing dark clouds and glorious white clouds

Thank God for the rain (: He answers prayers!!!

Travel back in time

Sitting in the Melbourne Uni garden while writing Joce's letter.

It was as if God was holding back the rain just to let me finish the letter and to enjoy the nice cold weather (:

Outside Melbourne Uni, opposite my school (: So beautiful.

Soon all the trees will be bald.. but still beautiful!

Just a quick post before I fall into a deep slumber that's very very very much needed at this point of time :P

So many of us constantly look at mirrors to make sure that we look beautiful, presentable.. decent. I looked at the mirror just then and I wondered to myself.. imagine having a mirror that could show you what's on the inside rather than what's on the outside. I'm not talking about being able to see our red blood pumping around our muscles and bones.

I'm talking about a mirror that could look into our souls and our hearts. If such mirror existed, we could constantly keep our attitudes, hearts and inner beauty in check, instead of always making sure we look good only on the outside.

So often we get caught up in the way we look and dress that we forget about what's more important on the inside; the state of our hearts, the way we treat others.. etc. Sometimes we're immune to our mistakes and faults because we fail to see what's wrong and no one reveals them to us.

Hm.

Mother's Day dinner celebration at Pacific House! Yum (: Don't have time to write much, so I shall blog with pictures! Hehe..

My favourite dish there (: Scallops with salted egg yolk.. yum.

My grandma didn't know where to look.. LOL.

We'll never know how much we love someone till we lose them.

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices with truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."

(1 Corinthians 13: 4-7)

Went to Deeper last night and I learnt something really new and interesting. The search for intimacy course is pretty awesome, I've to admit. I learnt that God is a matchmaker. Never really thought of Him that way before.

So many of us worry about who is going to be 'the one' for us at the end of the day. Will I find someone that truly loves me for who I am? Will someone be willing to spend the rest of their lives with me, through the happy days as well as the crappy days? How will I know who the right man is for me? What if I never find that person? So much uncertainty.

But God is in control. We just have to wait. He brought Eve to Adam.. In His time.

"Then the rib which the Lord God had taken from man He made into a woman, and He brought her to the man."

(Genesis 2:22)

God has placed this need for intimacy in our beings and He has promised to provide everything we need. We just have to trust in His timing and in His will for our lives, always walking in His ways. So many times we fail to do what God wants and choose to go against His will.. that's when things never work out.

For me, it's a huge relief.. knowing that God is in control, even in my 'love life'. Like the pastor said.. we don't have to be on the prowl, constantly searching for Mr Right. God will be the matchmaker (:

Had Mother's Day celebration with my wonderful CG.. combined with 3 other cells. It was really fun.. LOL. The skits were mainly about stereotypical singaporean mums, they were HILARIOUS.

"YOU GOT A.. WHERE IS YOUR A+???"

Tim's Zigzag dance was SO AWESOME. Hahahaha.. Isaac or I will try to post it up on youtube for everyone's amusement (:

I MISS FUNGUS..... AHHH.

The mysterious people with funny hats (Franny and I)

the bum (Amanda)

FUNGUS!!! (Audrey, you got cut!)

Best is to start young (: Right little nate? (not mate)

Ninjas turned EMOs.

Franny and Nathaniel.. so cute! (not talking about u, Franny)

The Scary Mask and Master Salami

Scariest picture of the night :S

There were a lot more photos, but a lot of them were to shaky to post up. Have to get the rest of the photos from other people (:

The rally was quite success.. the msg was alrite.. MOST IMPORTANTLY, so many lives were saved that night!!! Woooo hoooo.. When I saw so many people responding, I had to smile. Even the Martial Arts dude whom Qynnie hired for the event responded too!!! God is so so so AMAZING!!! The love of Jesus is so powerful and incomprehensible. It can bring a person even with the hardest heart to his/her knees. THANK YOU LORD!!!

After the Rally, I went to sleep over at Val and Ven's house. It was quite impromtu.. haha.. surprisingly my mum allowed me to. We had a nice chat into the night, about the weirdest things ever. LOL. So weird it shan't be mention on my blog.. haha. But Val and Ven slept before me and I got the awesome pleasure of hearing their really interesting snores! Hahaha.. quite funny (: I've also made some hypothesis about stuff going on recently. Let's see if I'm right :P

Decisions decisions..

Sacrifice.. stepping out in faith.

Why does it have to be this way?

Why can't things just be easier..

With every good thing is there also a bad side to it?

I really don't know what to do.

Recently, three pastors from a church in Turkey were gruesomely and ruthlessly martyred. Sometimes I can't help wondering, why why why did God allow this to happen. Why would He allow the very people whom Jesus died for, whom He loves so much, to die in such a horrible and inhumane manner? In such situations, you can really start to doubt and wonder.

"* Tilman was stabbed 156 times, Necati 99 times and Ugur's stabs were too numerous to count. They were disemboweled, and their intestines sliced up in front of their eyes. They were emasculated and watched as those body parts were destroyed. Fingers were chopped off, their noses and mouths and anuses were sliced open. Possibly the worst part was watching as their brothers were likewise tortured. Finally, their throats were sliced from ear to ear, heads practically decapitated."

Reading that, I had to cringe. The world has really turn away from God, denying His obvious existence. We ask for signs for prove that there is a God. But God has already proved his existence and love by giving us His word, by creating the majestic mountains, trees and vast oceans, by sending Jesus Christ to die for us. But many of us are blind, too blind to see the love we can receive from God, the Father and King who loves us more than anyone else ever will.

In our hearts, we know that there has to be a God. In view of all the suffering, calamities, wars, corruption and sinfulness in the world right now, it simply gives me more assurance that the Bible is truly the Word of God.. it is the truth. For the Bible has already stated where this sinful world is heading. Every single word is coming to pass right this very moment. How can I doubt any longer?

"Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler. However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name. For it is time for judgement to begin with the family of God; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God? And,

'If it is hard for the righteous to be saved,
what will become of the ungodly and the sinner?'

So then, those who suffer according to God's will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue doing good."

(1 Peter 4: 12 - 19)

Honestly, I don't know if I'll ever have the strength to face that kind of persecution for God. But like Shortie said, strength will come from God. He will be the strength in my weakness; my refuge when the storm becomes too hard for me to withstand.

I find it frustrating how many of us as christians have conflict within the church. Even the church is not spared from getting entangled with worldly pride and defects. Time is running out and we need to start praying for the lost.

"The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins."
(1 Peter 4: 7 - 8)

We need to start concentrating on who God is and what He is capable of instead of thinking about how weak and limited we are. It's hard, but we can do it.