Too exclusive. I'm guilty of that.
Is it too late to change?
I feel like I've just had a revelation. All of a sudden, my heart seems to be restless and I'm worrying about something I've never really thought much about before. But I sure have realised something new about myself. I can't help feeling guilty and sort of, ashamed.

I'm not the best friend someone can have.
But I'm not as good a friend as I thought I was.

All I can say is, love and cherish your friends,
even those who don't seem close to you..
show them concern before you lose them.
When it's too late, regret tends to flood in.

Human judgements and expectations can get us down so many times.
A slip of the tongue can do so much damage.
It's a pity words can't be taken back.
If only everyone was like Jesus.
Even the holiest falter, no one is exempted.

I find refuge in Your presence, that is the only place I can be totally and truly me. No matter how perfect people seem, they still make mistakes without even realising. A little taste of heaven on earth would be so amazing. But this world is falling into a spiral of disaster. The only hope we have is in the love of Jesus.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
1 Corinthians 13:4-7

If we carefully think about every single person we say we love. The love that we profess to others.. does it fit the description of true love in this verse? Why is it that we say we love.. but so often, we fail to. Is it because of the fact that humans always take things for granted? Has love been so contaminated by worldly desires and selfish pride, such that it can never be pure again on earth? We don't realise how desperately we need God in our lives.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCELYN LIAO (:

Thanks for being MY godsis, for always being there for me. Never failing to bring a smile on my face whenever I need one desperately. Thanks for being the one who understands most of my complaints. I could never ever ask for a better godsis, I thank God that He gave me you! You've sure taught me a lot and given me heaps of great advice and insight to certain problems in life. A friend I'd never want to lose and a friend I'll always hold close to my heart. Thanks for being you.

Came back from cell group just now. It was SO FUN. LOL. Charmaine, Val, Venetia, Dan and I were playing singstar from the 80's, legends and rock. We sang till we almost lost our voices. Yes, it was that CRAZY. I think we should've renamed it singSCREAM instead. Cuz basically that's what it was. Out-of-pitch screaming. Haha.. It was fun catching up with them (: Felt like we hadn't done anything together in ages.

Now I'm BAGGING Lydia Liao. For lagging so much when she's talking to me on the phone because she just fails to multitask. I also wanna bag her for laughing, singing and burping to herself (although I'm guilty of tt too).. YOU'RE WEIRD. Silent conversation. Gee, it has gone on for a long time hasn't it? hahaha... But yeap. SOMETHINGS are simply restricted to letters. SO what to do? Wait lor!

Chem. Maths. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lord PLEASE help me understand MOLES.

I'm forgiven by a saviour who did not deserve death
He was blameless, I was lost in shamefulness
I'm delivered, but it doesn't seem right
Unless I keep my eyes focused
On the Saviour who gave His life

In the middle of a world that denies it believes
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
To take up this cross and follow you Lord

-Hillsong United, Devotion

Here's an interesting statement for thought:

Someone said that pictures can tell a lot about a person,

if you look closely :) HAHAHA..

Ok, I didn't put my picture as big as the rest, so that you won't get frightened off your seats.

That's what a pro model agent said in Hana Kimi,

what you try to hide the most,

always shows up in pictures.

Is it true? Hahahaha.. quite funny and interesting.

I think I can sort of agree 0.o

Singapore, singapore, singapore :) The late nights, the talks at the coffee shop, the walks in the city, the hilarious episode with the taxi driver, eating peanuts (or drooling with it), the MRT rides, the nice warm horlicks treat, the crazy DOTA games, retarded team killing in CS, the entrance of Jasper, the hugs, the last goodbye. -all cherished and locked up in my heart :P

I miss everything about it and everyone in it. Even though it's so easy to run out of things to do, doing nothing and just chatting is still fun as. I hate the fact that everytime I leave Singapore, I just can't stop thinking about my friends there. Honestly, I try to occupy myself by doing other stuff, but I end up wondering to their blogs or just day dreaming. Which really annoys me Xp Yet, it's because I love them so much!

What Joce said was so true.. going back to Singapore and spending time with them is like taking a drug. Now that I can't spend time with them anymore, I feel so bored and down. When I take the 'drug' I feel so happy and carefree. Now that it's gone, it kills. Ok lah.. maybe it sounds really emo and funny to describe friends as 'drugs'. But this analogy really makes sense to me. Haha.

Today I almost cried, thanks to my mum's comforting and motivational words, I didn't. I felt really stressed becuz of the work I've missed.. although I know that I'll be able to catch up, I found myself dwelling in negative thoughts. I wanted to tell someone, thank God my mum called just in time. She said to me, "Don't think that it's too tough, just organise ur time properly and it'll be OK. Just make sure you don't ever think it's too tough." Might seem like simple words, but they really hit a cord in my heart. Starting to miss my parents a lot.. so random, but I really am. It's not just cause there's more responsibilities for me and Isaac around the house.. but they give the house a much warmer and cosier feeling. Just knowing they're there when I need them. Plus the fact that I've a super efficient and perfectionistic mum whom I'm so grateful for. I shouldn't take them for granted.

Back to school tmr. I'm just so glad that I'm not alone and that God is with me to bring me through it all. I'm also surprised at the fact that some friends told me they missed me after I came back. Nice warm feeling :)

Note to lydia and joce: You two are so F.O.C.
But you are also the greatest :) Love you!

I shall blog more about Singapore later, but now I've to go to Danica's birthday party.
Here are some pictures :)

us with a clown in town (rhymes)

Pretty pretty fountain

:)

Cuzzies for life- We have no choice :P

Caliti

LOL.

Jerusha is irritating. She keeps reading letters in front of me. Like seriously, what's her problem. You should have seen her yesterday, with her mouth full of peanuts under her tongue. She was paralysed in her speech, unable to move her tongue. It was a hilarious scene. I wish I had taken a picture, but you'll most probably puke at the sight of her unsightly mouth. =D
AHHH. She's irritating, she keeps laughing at my letter.

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This is Jerusha reporting, live from Singapore. (:
I would like to express my heartfelt love for Lydia Liao! She's like the nicest person on earth! (: Benedict Tan is nice too, just a little full of crap. Yes, he's F.O.C! =D
Hmmmm. I love the Hokkien Mee I just ate. & I feel like eating chicken rice cause Lydia looked so attractive eating chicken rice. Yeah, she's really VERY attractive. I'm attracted to her like Elephant Super glue to the skin. (: YEAH! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LYDIA.

I'm back home (:

Now that I'm back.. in my grandma's house, in Ang Mo Kio.. in Singapore.. it feels so weird. It's like one of my biggest wishes has come true, yet it's so hard for me to treat it as reality. I can finally give the hugs I wanted to give.. maybe it's cause of the reason I'm back that's making everything feel a lil strange.

(Tab just got called a "Certified Pig". Well done for your accomplishment Tab, although I'm sure you didn't have to do much to gain your title, since you do it so well naturally.)

My grandfather's gone.. but I'm very, very happy for him. He's in heaven with God now.. What in the world (literally) could be better than that? I'm sure he is in a much better and perfect place. No more suffering, no more tears, no more anxieties, no more worries or fears. The testimonies that were given last night during the wake were really touching. Tho there weren't many.. but I know my grandfather has managed to changed and impact the lives of many. With his corny and yet funny jokes, his smiles, his childhood stories, his love for the Lord and his love for everyone around him. Like Isaac said, he has been an awesome inspiration to many :)

NEways, still can't believe I'M BACK Xp It's so good to be able to see people from CCS again.. and lydia, tab, joce and mouse.. I love you all very very much.

Last friday in the city. We got lost.
ANOTHER adventure :) .. hahaha.
Thanks to Isaac Ho.
This time it didn't involve chinese tea for SIX bucks.. but it did involve a whole lot of wandering around (almost aimlessly) to get Gabby's prezzie.
Isaac wasn't sure which tram we were suppose to take, so he used his pro trail and error method to get us to Brunswick Road which was like AGES away from Smith Street, where all the sporting factory outlets were.
After an hour of walking towards the direction of Smith Street, WE REACH OUR DESTINATION!!!
only to find that everything was CLOSED. Nike, Adidas, Converse.. all CLOSED. We got there at 5.45 and it was all closed by 5.30. Talk about being unlucky Xp

A glimpse of how dejected we were after realising the shops were closed.
It wasn't that bad actually.. it was quite fun chatting to Shortie, Josh, Alvin and Zac. Although things didn't really turn out as we planned.. we can always..
"LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE" :) Right joce? hehe..

The sun setting outside my house. My camera and my phone can't capture the reality of how beautiful it really was. I really thank God for the sunset.. SO PRETTY.

This is the bright light coming from the sunrise on my way to school. It looked much more magnificent than this, trust me. Haha. :)

Love is such a wonderful gift to have and to give..

"..Nothing can hinder the Lord from saving, whether by many or by few."

(1 Samuel 14:6)

The falling man.
Did humans really bring this sort of disaster upon themselves?

They would've rather died by jumping off a 90 - 100 storey building, then to stay in there. That's how bad it was. To see people in the above level jumping out the windows, knowing it's going to be your decision to make soon. That's got to be crazy.