TODAY is a very very special day :)



TODAY is the day Tabitha Anna Tan the rambutan was born. Or should I say.. produced. Hehe. NEway, I wanna make a little dedication to her on my blog.



Thanks for sharing my childhood and memories with me :) Although you used to bully me very ruthlessly, I still thank God so much for you. Now, instead of being against me, you're always there for me :) You're a cuzzie and friend I will never lose despite the distance between us.. I love you tab! Happy Birthday :)



Have been studying for the chemistry sac which is TMR!!! AHHH. Help me somebody.



My mum arrived back from Singapore this morning! I've missed her. Although since she left, the house has been slightly more peaceful.. but it's always great to have a addition of noise and motherly nagging around Xp I got a cd chinese music for me to immerse myself in, as well as a really cute notebook/diary from Lydia. I was wondering where the letters she wrote to me were, but after wondering for like 10 seconds.. I realised that she had forgotten to pass it to my mum :) I sure know her too well. Hahaha..



My dad also asked my mum to buy a 700 dollar baby taylor guitar! When I heard that my mum bought it, my jaw dropped. LOL. Didn't know my dad was SO into guitar. Plus, I got hong baos from aunties and uncles in singapore :) Haha... Surprisingly, there were quite a few.

The diary that I'll be keeping my memories in..

The 700 dollar baby taylor 0.0 I'm sure it'll sound better if a pro played it Xp

Singapore Chinese culture imported to the land down under

Are friends supposed to be hard to keep?

Emma and JP's CUTE 3 week baby Nathaniel.. (: How CUTE is he.. his tiny fingers, soft skin and shuai face.. ok, maybe can't really be described as 'shuai'.. but he will be when he grows up, I'm sure (: Childhood innocence.. something to be really cherished while it lasts.

Miniature Maccas cup.

The straw looks so inproportionate..

LOL.

Sheryl and Yu Qing, tram buddies.. haha.

Want a kiss?

Chloe when she was less than a year old, 2 years ago.

I changed my blogskin today. Wanted a bigger space instead of some cramped little box. I think this space is quite cute and funny despite it's simplicity :P

I didn't do much today besides going to chinese school in the morning, eating, sleeping and watching Superman Returns. I feel like a pig. But this day of rest was REALLY needed. The whole of last week was just study, study and more study. Not only during classes, but at home, during recess AND lunch -.- I don't wanna become a nerd.. AIS Xp But I'll have to do whatever it takes to do well.

During dinner my dad, Isaac and I were talking about comedy and action movies. Despite my dumbness, I actually managed to make a really good point about why comedies are better than action movies. Well.. the fact is, humans cannot survive without laughter, but they sure can without violence. How true. That is the reason why I don't really like action movies.

LYDIA LIAO I'm full.

It was Tessa's birthday last friday. Went to Brunetti's with Nic, Greta, Jim, Betty, Hannah and Tess (of course).. it was a REALLY hot day, so we had gelati :) It was SO good. Too bad Brunetti's is going to be closing down soon, just when I start to go there with them every now and then.

Me, trying to act like a pig. Ok, MAYBE I do look like one, but that's not the point. That's Nic failing to look like anything in particular but himself :)

CHOCOLATE FONDUE FOUNTAIN THINGO..... I SO WANT ONE.

Here are some photos I wanted to upload from my phone AGES ago.. but was too lazy to.. here they are :P

Caitlin's angelic, adorable and innocent smile :)

That was the darkest train ride I've ever had in commuting history.

lovely godsisters :)

turtle and chick

The vast sky outside my house :)

"I like to see people reunited.. I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.."

-Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, Johnathan Foer.

I think I've gotten to bored. Most of yesterday and today was spent at home... doing my homework and youtubing... man.. Was SO looking forward to soccer today.. but it ended up being cancelled cuz of the lack of numbers. Kinda dampened my mood then. But then I carried on to watch 'Devil Beside You'. It's really good..

Except that the ending was against christian values.. but sweet nonetheless.

GUESS WHAT.. it's raining! :) Thank God.

HOMEWORK LOAD is starting to increase.. soon SACs will be coming and then I'll be like AHHH. But it's okay. I'll cope well :) Haha.

Might be going back to singapore soon. Even if I go back.. It's so hard to be happy there. Although I'm not going back for a holiday.. I just think It's hard to deal with mixed emotions. NEways.. God is good. Thank God for every single thing he has blessed me with but I fail to see.

Today while I was on the bus on the way home.. I looked out the window into the vast aussie sky. I saw really beautiful clouds. Some looked so puffy and cute that I started to have the idea that maybe God decided how clouds would look like by thinking to himself.. 'Maybe I should just smack some cotton wool on this blue sky. It'll look cute and puffy like that.' Uh huh.. neways, I managed to capture a little bit of the more 'glorious' clouds instead of the cute puffy single ones.






Here's one that I took last time I went to Merimbula



These were taken while I played soccer :)

People say that clouds can be anything you make them out to be. The clouds seemed stacked up on one another today.. so I figured some of them looked like mt fuji.. not that I know how mt fuji looks like.. BUT. Those clouds looked like mighty mountains in the sky :)

So beautiful are the work of your hands O God!

Talked to lydia and joce for a short while last night.. or should i say.. this morning. It was a nice talk.. altho it wasn't really for long. Lydia Liao got robbed.. AHAHAHAHA. Funny story. Ok, I know I sound mean and saddistic.. but it's really commical despite lydia actually being robbed. Thank God she's safe and sound :) Got to talk to tab for like 10 seconds, but it was a nice 10 seconds :)

This song by YUI is called 'Good-bye Days'. The first time I heard it was when lydia, tab, dah and I went to watch Midnight Sun in Singapore. Although I didn't noe what she was singing cuz it was in Jap.. there were english subtitles which were so touching. The way she sang the song was also very.. emotional I guess. NEways I think its words are really meaningful.. and have 'struck the nostalgic cord in my heart'.. causing me to start thinking about certain things going on in life.

Here are some of the translations from the song..

This tune I've tucked inside my pocket
I would love to let you hear it
Carefully, I begin increasing the volume.
I attempt to get it just right.

Oh goodbye days, now.
In the air I sense changes are coming
To yesterday, we bid so long..

I hand you one side of my earphones
Time fleets right by us in an instant.
Have I loved you well enough?
I'm really perplexed by that sometimes.

Oh goodbye days, now.
Something is starting to change in my heart.

Beautiful and quite deep lyrics I have to say. Especially in relation to the movie, Midnight Sun. She wrote and sang it before she died.. and all her loved ones only heard it after she was gone. If that happened to a friend of mine.. I'll just like.. be sooooo heartbroken. I think YUI wrote the song herself. I looked at the lyrics of her other songs and realised they were all quite meaningful. Haha.. Maybe it's easy to relate to her kinda songs becuz she's close to my age? Whatever the case, she's awesome!

Last night, zac and I went to nick, franny and jasmine's house warming. It was pretty good. Had a great talk with shortie and salami. For like 2 hours 0.0 The food was REALLY good too. The most special part of last night was when ouser, zac, shortie, darren and I sat down outside in the garage sharing all our new songs. Everyone thought the weather was a little chilly.. but I reckon it was absolutely perfect :) The breeze was so gentle and gave me this sense of calmness. Made the atmosphere of sharing our newly written songs so special and warm. When I sang my song, everyone was quiet and I felt like God was right there with us.

The time you sing a song best is when you sing it from your heart.. and I sure sang it from deep within. The words of the song constantly speaks to me... and I thank God for giving me the words to put on paper. I really do not have ANY poetic or song writing talent.. but God uses the weak and makes them strong by his might. Here's a portion of the lyrics..

Though there will be clouded days
Though the storm will come again
I'll love you more each day
As you reveal your grace

I cling to your word
With a heart of praise
There is no way
To comprehend your love.

inspired by God
written by me

I really really hope that this song won't just be another song. But a song that will speak into the hearts of people and when they sing it.. it'll be their personal prayer to God.

So many times I find it hard to love certain people. I judge them and fail to love them for who God has created them to be. It gets really hard.. I guess if it was easy to love, God wouldn't constantly tell us to love one another and Jesus' sacrifice wouldn't be as significant. I really need God to change this heart of mine.. There's this quote on the front of my diary..

If we judge people, we have no time to love them.

So true. But then again.. even if we have the time to love them, will we?

Only Jesus has true love.. we have to learn to sacrifice, to look past imperfections, to look at people through the eyes of Jesus.

If we truly love God.. we would love others too. For God is love.. so how can we say we love God if we fail to love others? Quite a statement of revelation for me.

"I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.."- Johnathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYDIA LIAO! Do I have to say much to show how much I thank God for you? I'm sorry I can't be there to give you a hug and say happy birthday face to face.. BUT, I've done as much as I'm capable of.. I think. I shall be able to celebrate your birthday with you in singapore one fine day :) However, now, all I can say is that you loved by me! Somethings don't need to be said for the message to be carried across right? I'm sure you know me well enough to know everything I wanna say to you on your birthday :) This friendship means so so so so much to me..

"Grow old and drop teeth together.."

Went to aunty angie's house for dinner today. Everytime I go to her house for dinner, I never fail to get fully bloated from a wonderfully scrumptious meal :) She has such creativity and a talent for cooking! Haha.. one day I shall cook as well as her.

NEways.. when I walked out of her house.. I looked up in search for stars.. and I sure wasn't disappointed. The stars were soooo pretty. Then I also saw the gigantic moon! SO BRIGHT.. so NEAR. The moon in australia always seems bigger, brighter and nearer than in Singapore.. for some reason 0.o

Last night, I went for a cell group social and Charmaine, Venetia, Daniel, Sian and I ended up outside enjoying the somewhat-cold weather and the glittery stars in the dark of the nightsky. STARS ARE SO SO SO SO BEAUTIFUL.. the funny thing is I can't explain why. The atmosphere was so pleasant. We had a nice chit chat session too :)

Hm.. at church today.. A death of someone was mentioned. The sister-in-law of a church member had strangely, without any warning, passed away this morning.. The worst thing is that the church member's brother had lost his wife after TWO MONTHS of marriage. When the pastor mentioned it. I was like.. stunned. Apparently he woke up to find that his wife wasn't breathing.. she was dead and he didn't even know why.

It's so scary how we can lose someone so precious and dear to us in a split second. We always think that it'd never happen to us.. or it's just simply impossible. BUT. The fact is that it can happen anytime. I've gotten the email so many times telling me to treasure my friends and not take anything for granted. I look at it and realise that it's so true and I nod my head. But do I actually understand the reality of it all?

Often most of us take our loved ones for granted
without even realising.
That's the tragic fact of life.

:) LOVELY LOVELY CHILDHOOD..

CUTE PHOTOS YEA??? Hahaha.. I decided to scan the old photos of my childhood. Ahh.. the days of the 4 cuzzies.. I think one of my favourite places is THE BEACH :) I seem to have so many nice memories and times there. Tab was soooooo CUTE! Her hairstyle now is kinda simillar to the one she had when she was young.. suits her so well :P hahaha.

School officially started yesterday! But good news for me.. EVERY WEDNESDAY I'm supposed to have 4 sessions in school because it's a half day for all year 11s.. BUT, cuz I sacrifice my saturday mornings to do chinese outside of school, I get the last two sessions of wednesday OFF.. muahahaha. That means every wednesday I only go to school for two sessions in the morning.. till like 10.30.. and I can head straight home or hang around in the city :P It's kinda bad becuz I've to commute 2 hours just for 2 sessions at school.. but o well.. there's definitely more good than bad.

I'm glad I got to catch up with all my lovely friends at school. Felt good to see them again after two long months. Sian seems to be settling well at unihigh so it's ALL GOOD :)

For teachers.. LOL. I got MS PAPP AGAIN. I've had her for the last two years as my maths teacher. Kinda good and bad XP CAn't really be bothered explaining why.. too many reasons.

EPIC MOVIE IS SO BAD. PLEASE DO NOT WASTE UR MONEY AND WATCH IT. If you really must watch it, wait for the DVD to come out. Seriously.. it's one of the worst and shortest movies I've ever seen ..........

Today I sent the letters off to singapore! When I handed the huge envelope to the person at the counter.. I felt as if I was released from something.. haha. Kind of like all the feelings and things that have happened over I've kept unsaid the past few days are finally going to be known. Kinda weird.. But yep.. that's the way it is :)