Last Sunday, I had a party with most of the fungus peeps and some leaders :) It was more fun than I expected it to be. I didn't even plan anything out.. people just entertained each other which was good :P The food was awesome! All wonderfully catered by my very own parents. They are so great.. seriously. Neways, I basically hung out with the girls.. talking to them about stuff. VONNIE, SHORTIE AND SALAMI tackled me to the ground and attempted to colour me with markers... they actually succeeded. I was surprised that I was so weak.. ahaha.. but it was quite fun. I pretended to be angry with them... lol. Sarah was so guilty that she let me draw stuff on her after some persuasion.


We played some soccer, opened all the cool prezzies.. ate delicous choc and pandan cake.. erm.. watched the dvd that a group of them gave to me and isaac. It was called FIFA fever.. it was pretty cool! LOL.. so much footage of old matches and stuff.


THANKS EVERYONE FOR COMING!!! I was so happy when people like shortie and janice could come altho their exams are like super near. O.. and shortie's poem was sooooo sweet!!! I think it's the first poem anyone has ever written to me.. lol. Thanks shortie!

That's the end of my 16th year...

Just came back from watching 'STEP UP' with charmaine and isaac. It was AWESOME! Altho the acting from channing tatum was a bit dodgy, the dance music and choreography was WOW. Amazing how they combined arty arty ballet dancing with street dancing.. so cool xP Ok.. Channing has a gr8 body, he can play soccer and dance like a pro, but he's not that hot is he??? lol....

FUN :)

16 already. Man. So fast. A long way more to go, before I reach my final destination and home :) I look forward to that wonderful day. But now, I'm SIXTEEN. I've been through so many downs and so many unforgettable experiences.. Laughter and tears.. I've experienced the downest of times and most hyperest of times.. Still a lot more to experience and learn. But right now, I'll just reflect on the little I've had to deal with.

Friends.. haha. Thank God for friends. They really make my world such a colourful place. Altho sometimes, I feel lonely and terrible about stuff.. I know God has given me some friends that will be there for me. To comfort me, to ask if I'm ok, to pray for me and who genuinely care for me :) Thank God for them. Felt good getting so many smses throughout the day.. even from unexpected friends :p It was pretty cool. THANKS EVERYONE!!! So thoughtful and sweet :)

Although, today something happened in maths that kinda made me sad for a few hours.. I think I'll get over it soon. It may seem like a small thing to some people.. but I really hate being accused of doing something I didn't do.. and getting told off in front of so many people. It's just something I'm really not used to.. and I hate. Haven't got wrongly told off my a teacher in ages. I felt so bad it wasn't funny. For those of you who saw me bawl my eyes out for the very first time.. yes, I DO CRY. I was so embarassed, cuz i really couldn't stop sniffling and crying. Ais >.<>

My family went to have dinner with Flm's and Valentia's families at Sophia's. It was fun :) Brightened up my day a lot. The seating was a little weird, but after a little shifting, we managed to talk a lot more comfortably. When I got there, Charmaine put this huge ball (a.k.a Birthday card.. -.=) on my chair.. hahaha. I was like... er.. right, what am I meant to do with this... hahahaha. The prezzies that FLM gave me were soooo COOK. There was this crazy little cow breakfast bowl.. hahaha.. reminded me of shortie's bertha.. but it is kinda different. It's a cow in the shape of a bowl! haha... sooo cute. There was also a water gun-like squishy octopus and a small cow soft toy :P This time, I've got so many cow items, it's funny.. hahaha. (you can look at photos on my msn space, http://j3ru5h4.spaces.live.com/)

I unexpectedly got quite a number of prezzies.. but I guess, a birthday is not about the prezzies.. but about changes and new challenges. 16.. lol. I can learn to drive.. I can watch MC16 movies.. I'll be faced with new responsibilities.. etc. I just thank God for letting me have my 16th birthday... I want to live each day for Him.

New birthday resolution:
Do everything FOR God.. for he is the one who give me strength do everything. Use what's in my hands Lord.. just like how you did with Moses. You turned water into blood, you parted the red sea and performed countless miracles with a simple staff in his hand.. do the same with whatever I have.. I give it all to You and for Your glory. But Lord, I can't do it by myself, I need you to give me courage and to do things I normally wouldn't do :) I put my trust in Your love for me.

I spoke to tab, lydia and joce last night. Felt so good to hear their voices :) I'm missing them so much now after talking to them. I felt as if I was in singapore already.. Have been so tied up with things happening here in aus.. that, I think I've failed to keep my commitment to them. My monthly or weekly emails.. haven't written to them in ages. Hahaha.. it was like tab and lydia's first time singing happy birthday to me in so many years. Can't remember the last time they sang me happy birthday.. hah. JOCE'S SINGING WAS UNDISPUTED THO.. hahahaha. She sang a solo bday song for me :) So sweet.. hahaha. Her wonderful singing voice was very melodious to my ears.. hahaha.. but my tummy hurt so bad from laughing Xp I MISS THE SALT SHAKERS. so darn much.

BYE Jerusha Ho the 15 year old :)

Who can go against me, if the Lord is with me?

Here are some photos we took at the tulip farm. It was SOOOO fun :P There are more photos in my msn space: www.j3ru5h4.spaces.live.com.

FUN :) It's healthy, it's good exercise. Puts a wide smile on your face and makes your cheek muscles feel all weird :P LOL.. not to mention your stomach muscles. It tenses it SO much.. haha. Want to get a 6 pack? Just surround yourself with crazy and hilarious friends :)

Yesterday, I went to jumpstart with a group of Fungus people. This year's Jumpstart was definitely better than last year's... haha. How I wish Danica could've been there with us.. Good memories.. lol. Lashes and Danica constantly complaining how boring Jumpstart 2005 was.. and the guys forming a circle around Danica and I for protection against city drunkies :) So funny. Hehe..

The break dancing was soooooo amazing. The K.O Crew really rocked the stage and left everyone in awe... haha. I can't imagine how much perserverance, effort and time it must have taken each of them to get into that kinda muscular shape. Seriously.. they are such strong dudes that make the moves look simple, but they really aren't ez. The korean dude that sang was pretty good too, I actually tried closing my eyes to see if he would sound good on a cd... he passed the test with flying colours.. lol. He kind sounded like Relient K. The only bad thing was that I couldn't really hear the words from his song. I think my favourite moment was when MAGI came onto the stage and rapped. They're SOOOOO PRO. Seriously.. hahaha.. altho they were asian, they managed to rap like blacks.. haha. The lyrics to their rap was really meaningful and great :) It was about how humans have turned away from God and make theories to prove that God did not cr8 us.. and stuff. I loved it.. haha.

We went for supper afterwards to celebrate Salami's and Keean's birthdays. Isaac, so thoughtfully, got a strawberry cheesecake for them before Jumpstart. I think it was meant to be refrigerated.. hahaha.. when we took the plastic off the circumference of the cake, it DEFLATED! lol....it was like strawberry cheese pudding. So we decided to have a communion of eating one spoon of 'pudding' each, since the tight waitress didn't want to give us tissues to eat with. While Qynnie sent all of us back home, I had a great time singing random songs with Salami, Alvin and Isaac. haha.. Then Jacilyn and I started talking about weird places mozzie bites might end up and how big they can grow. Imagine if a mozzie bite was IN your nose...LOL. EW. Or if it grew massively on your face........ LOL. Man.. we are so lame. Everyone needs lameness once in a while rite? hahaha.. but I think I was pretty hyper last nite :) I love being hyper!

TODAY WAS SO FUN!..... I skipped the usual routine of going to Fungus and went to the dutch Tulip Farm instead with F.L.M, Valerie, Venetia, Wesley, Isaac and all our parents (except for charmaine's). I laughed so much throughout the whole day.. it was really really enjoyable. First of all, the weather was a little crazy, it changed from hail to rain to shine every one hour. It was strange. I think I got to know charmaine, valerie and venetia a little better.. lol. (I give up with capital letters in front of names, it sounds too formal.. haha. It doesn't mean I respect any of u less Xp) We had a picnic at dandenong, fed birds, played mini footy mark-up and then we went to the Dutch Tulip farm. It was sooo interesting to see people(especially guys) in clogs and kilts, and also playing the scottish bag pipes..

Valerie, venetia and I stumbled upon a realisation.. lol. I shan't post it up, if not I'll get hunted down. LOL.. but it is a very very very possible and pausible thing that could happen in future :]

Flm, isaac and I took some pictures amongst the plantations of tulips. They were so pretty :) So many different colours.. all lined up neatly in a row.. lol. The mud was horrendous.. haha. Mud cakes formed on the bottom of our shoes, but it was all good because we had the BOOT SCRAPER!!! LOL. YES.. it was actually label the boot scraper. A machine designed for people to scrap mud off their boots/shoes. There was also a cool wishing well that had a sign stating what kind of wishes you could receive according to how much money you throw into it. You can take a look at the photos on my msn space.. lol. For some reason, I can't post photos on my blog.. ais Xp So dodgy man. The little models of knomes, fairies and witches were pretty cute too :p

Have been thinking a lot about whether to take a bold step, or to stay still. Some things have changed.. I see groups forming and I really don't like it. Why should there be a barrier between people? Status? Reputation? Annoying barriers that prevent us from being united as one, serving a common God. A number of reasons are keeping me where I am... but why do I feel as if.. I should go? Maybe it's just a temporary feeling.. but bottom line is that, it's there. Maybe it's what God wants? Speak to me God and show me what to do.. your plans are way above mine and are perfect. If I have to make sacrifices.. I'll do my best to overcome.. but help me with the pain if you allow it to be inflicted.

Yesterday, when I was reading the bible, I read the story of Moses. Moses is such a coward. But he reminds me SO much of myself. God told him to go to Egypt to free the Israelites. He doubted his own ability.

He said to the Lord, "I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue. Who am I to lead the Egyptians out of Egypt?"

The Lord said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say." (Exodus 3 or 4, verse 11)

EVEN after the Lord said that, Moses still held a lot of doubt in his mind. But the Lord understood his fears.. and altho His anger burned within Him, He gave Moses, Aaron, to speak for Him. God is such a merciful and great God. He knows the fears and disappointments of our hearts.. He knows the things we try desperately to run away from.. even when we keep in lying silently in the depths of our 'hidden secrets'. He wants to use us no matter what we may fear or how incapable or empty we are. On our own, we are nothing, but God is willing to use whatever we have in our hands to do wonderous things for His glory. If we're willing to lift up everything we are and have to Him, there is nothing he cannot do through us. Absolutely nothing. We'll be able to draw courage from fear, we'll be able to feel joy in the midst of depression.. we'll be able to live as God's testimonies of His love and unfathomable power. He will help us and teach us how to live out His perfect purpose for our lives.