This is a poem i composed...

The Hand That I Hold

Whose hand do I hold,

When my business folds?

Whose hand do I hold,

When my bread turns to mould?

Whose hand do I hold,

When my world falls apart?

I hold yours Jesus,

Your hand is the one i hold.

Broken friendships,

Broken lives,

Give it all to you

And I'll be made Brand new.

Friends may not always,

Be there.

But as long as your hand is in mine,

And mine in yours, Jesus.

You will pick me up

And turn my solem heart

Into a smile.

- God and Sha

As you all may guess from my poems..i've been going through some tough times with my friendships.. The problems just keep coming one after another..it never ends just "there".. True friends..GOOD friends..are meant to build each other UP...NOT to knock each other DOWN..I bet i've said that a million times... But is never remembered.

For u:

Just don't hold on to things too tightly.. It'll be hard to let go. You don't have to let go in the first place, thank GOD. Just give praise to God and be thankful u still have a great friend like her ok? Accept her for who she is..im NOT just SAYING.. u HAVE to remember.. It takes time to change..rite now, all she needs is time for God to work in her..alrite? So just reeelllaaaxxx...lol.. enjoy ur life!

I love tab and lydia so much..they are my best friends and will always be. Had a good chat with tab and lydia the other day...Glad you're making an effort in keeping this friendship.. =D Now you just have to keep it up! I'm sure u can do it lydia..=)

God Bless ya peeps!

Sha.Chick.Jeru.

Tab just told me to blog about how nice she is..ok..here goes.. Tab IS NICE!
Ok..that's it tab..hehe=) okok..seriously..tab is the best person on earth! Thanks for being here for me whenever i need u and when i dont't..=) You're the best tab! haha..

Yea..some controversy in school..tessa and betty are sad for some reason..sarah as well.. Don't really know why. I was surprise that betty was actually trying to tell me what her prob was..glad she trusts me.. I hope everything will be fine..

Feeling kinda sian..cuz of that person again..=_= I'm really sian of being sian of that particular person..-.- So..now, i'm just taking it as it is. Now, i'm not that sad surprisingly..haha. lol..so many people ask why..thanks roy, bryan and tab for asking =) Really appreciate it. Just that this thing, i reckon, will always be lingering..haha. o well..what to do? If i feel sad about it, it's just my making me have more wrinkles and making my hair grow white faster..hehe. I'm smarter than that=P

TESSA'S BIRTHDAY IS NEXT WEEK! The first birthday party i got invited to in australia..lol. thanks tess..u're a great pal=) Gtg get ur prezzie soon..hehe. Swimming carnival on ur birthday..great? Burning hot sun..everyone getting severe sun burnts..gee..erm..haha.

I'm going for glen waverley's under 16s gals team's training session this sunday..can't wait for it! I can make new friends..MY AGE! lol..and i pray God will just give me an open heart and help me to just have absolute F.U.N...That's all i ask=P

God Bless
Sha.Chick.Jeru

Sigh..i don't really know what's happening to my certain friendship.. it's kinda depressing. But i guess it's all part of God's perfect plan. Although i can't see why this is happening now.. i just have to put my 100% faith and trust in God. I can also just thank God for everything else in my life, instead of complaining about just this one thing. I thank God for Tab..Bryan, Zac, CCS youths..my parents..My dear school mates that have made my living in australia much easier for me.. Soccer..etc etc.
Just this one thing is keeping me to be perfectly happy this moment, at this time. O well.. Anyway, everything in my home is slowly falling into place. Boxes cleared in my rooms..ah, i can finally see my floor..time to do some push ups and sit ups..hehe.

"Did you feel the darkness tremble?
When all the saints joined in one song?
And all the streams flowed as one river..
To wash away our brokeness.."

Dear Lydia's b'day tmr. Want to dedicate a small paragraph to her...
Thanks for giving me joy when i'm depressed. Altho it's quite rare, i thank you anyway for being there. Altho you may be oblivious sometimes, i still love ya for who u are. I thank God for you, you are one of the greatest blessings God has ever given me..Love you so much Lydia, my little midgit sister..=P Missing you a lot =s

God Bless,
Jerusha.Sha.Chick.Jeru

Caught in The MIddLE..lol..
Haiz, why must i always be caught in the middle.. lol..among all my friendships, i somehow always end up as the one with the clear thinking at that moment. Always giving advice to ahem about what do do..lol. I don't know...maybe God created me for that purpose? Lol..well, at least people feel better after talking to me. I'm just thankful that i don't in such broken relationships that i help to mend. =P

I had a science lesson the other day.. Sometimes, i wish i didn't have to study science.. I was studying how the world was created and everything in it.. two theories..one is not to me. First, it was the big bang. There was a explosion and the molecules from nowhere just "fell into place" and created the world and everything living in it.. this one is a theory to me. Something fake and i shall never ever believe in.
Second, which is the creation "theory".. there was God. HE created the earth with it's waters, sky and land. Then he created the birds in the air, the animals in the water and on land..etc etc. Then there was adam and eve. They were the first humans on earth..

Let me ask all who believe in the BB theory, why is it that you believe that totally out of this world theory and not God creating the earth? Practically you won't believe in God..but BOTH are NOT practical. So..if you have to step out of your "box", why not chose God?

Anyways..i pray that all the broken relationships around me will be fixed..with or without my help. And hearts will be comforted and that all may know that God is true and ever-present in our lives.

God Bless. Jerusha. Sha. Chick. Jeru